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Pictures will come as soon as I get some from my partners in crime this past weekend and when I figure out how this goddamn stupid digital camera works.



I must be getting old if technology starts to piss me off.

OMFG!



My elderly step-grandparents are making our lives MISERABLE here for the last few days that I am in the states. First they have taken over my parent's bedroom. Oh my dad only has to WORK everyday as a CRANE OPERATOR. Nothing serious that requires a well rested head for SAFETY reasons or anything. Then his mother (remember gentle reader - my real father died when I was 8 - this is my step-dad's mother) is PARANOID and thinks just because Lauren is here spending time with me that I don't want to spend time with her. Like my mom said - they waited all this time to see me NOW? Why didn't they come visit months ago? And she is jealous of my child? NUTS! Then she gives me all this CRAP as "gifts"...you know cheap ass makeup and stupid things I can't ever use. An umbrella with some institute for the blind logo all over it - AS IF!!



And last but not least - there is this DOG they own. An ugly tiny but FAT dachsund. IT IS A HORRID LITTLE FUCKER that DESTROYS things - including my parent's furniture and it SHITS ON THE FLOOR DAILY! Just EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!



I HATE THAT DOG.



I want to spend the final few days I am here in PEACE. I don't want to commit Doggie murder! But I may be forced to!

I really am searching for a heart of gold...



it's so rare I doubt I ever find it.



But like Neil says - I want to live and I want to give...



It keeps me searching for a heart of gold. That's for sure...

wtf?



It's like I died or something.



No one from my former house that I considered my friends has even bothered to message me or talk to me since my move to Inari.



It makes me wonder how much they valued my friendship before...I guess they were GLAD to see me leave.



I am sure there were a few there that are glad I am gone despite the fact that I am still their "Friend".



W/E - it just proves to me what really matters and it sure as HELL isn't a fucking website.



I seriously don't expect to be that involved here after this meeting in London because as I said before -



NO ONE REALLY CARES!



(The FEW that do have already let me know they do -the rest of you are too late to let me know now...if you cared you would have messaged me by now.)

I dedicate this to those that flame me...in public or PRIVATE:



This Is Not For You

Pearl Jam



Restless Soul…Enjoy your Youth

Like Muhammed hits the truth

Can’t escape from the common rule

If you hate something – don’t you do it too



Small my table…seats just two

Got too crowded – can’t make room

Where did they come from?

Stormed My Room!

And you dare say!

It belongs to you…



This is not for you

Ah not for you

This is not for you

Never was for you!



All that’s sacred comes from Youth

Dedications – naïve and true

With no power nothing to do…

I still remember – why don’t you?

Don’t you?



This is not for you

This is not for you

This is not for you….

...no one cares.



This is a web-site and no one cares really.



Yes - not even I care that much. Not after spending all day either in a car or at a muddy lake trying to fish. Yeck!



At any rate, I got to see some spectacular scenerey as we drove on Trail Ridge Road which is the highest paved road in North America. Not surprisingly, Colorado has 50 of the 53 highest peaks in North America too! Pretty impressive.



But still...no one cares.



What's a girl to do?



Go to myspace for awhile I guess (And get some attention from Orlando!) :D

Ain't life GRAND?



Well - it is!

and